We were together 27 years. I am depressed, in shock, and do not want to believe that my love has gone, and it's getting worse and worse. He had a heart attack in our driveway. Now it's just a lonely hell. The only thing that is keeping me going right now is thinking about how lucky I was to have him in my life and for that I will always be grateful. The only thing that gives me a little comfort is when people reach out to give me a hug or when they are willing to listen to me when I need to talk or cry. It can meddle with your work, and you may lose focus when you miss their smell, warmth around you, and touch. I'm so heartbroken and devastated. And while I know God will get my through this, my heart still breaks when people only want to say time will heal, when I really just need someone to let me cry. My husband died 17 years ago in a car accident when I was only 29 years old. I have heard there is no grief that is the same. I wish I could afford one and drive it for us. We met when I was 22. We spent 26 years together and we had 6 kids. <3 Reply by Mcgeorge Bsure 4 years ago I began CPR, I could not get him to wake up. Take care. My world came crashing down. Share your final wishes, just in case. I am so alone. We were happy, we were a complete family who overcame struggles from our pasts, cancer scares, alcohol and more, yet this happens. We planned and raised 3 boys. His words echo in my mind, and I feel like his wisdom resonates in my heart. Everyone says it gets better with time, but that's a lie it does not ever go away. I lost my home, which we shared together in 21 years and had to liquidate everything I owned for medical expenses and other obligations and still have debts of $20,000, but all of the material things mean nothing when you lose your soulmate. It is so hard. He should still be sitting in his recline. I cry every day and can't believe . He died 48 hours later from a PE. I feel that the more you loved and were loved in return, the worse the grief. Anne Spiller, I Am Not That Strong By After getting our butts kicked so many years with the usual trials of a tough financial life-we had it made. I find many widows and widowers feel like they're floundering as time passes. I cry every day. We had one child. I was with him since I was 18 years old. I lost my husband almost a year ago to the date, June 23, 2019. He would tell me he can't wait until he retires so he can buy a brand new blue Ford pickup truck and we can just relax and go riding! We were married 40 years back in October. I'll always love him til my last breath. I started with one hour at a time and have progressed to one day at a time. It is exactly how I feel! I lost my husband 5 months ago, I am lost without him. I am changed. Claude McKay, ' Absence '. I love her so much. I can't bring myself to cancel his cell phone, because his voice mail is the only place I can hear it. After calming him down and getting a nurse, I asked why does he not have bed rails? He pulled off the shoulder of the highway to secure a metal crate on the back of our pickup. I miss him so much you see he was the love of my life and a great father and the best papa that ever lived it would have been 35 years on March 31 and now I have nothing but memory to comfort me at night. You melted my heart. I hear footsteps walking, I've lived. I know God is near, and I continually pray to feel his presence to get me through step by step. He was not in pain, but they kept saying that the cancer was in his back, stomach, and two nodules on his lungs. He fell at home and I rushed him to the ER. People think I have moved on but I am not sure I ever will! Grief And Loneliness After Losing A Spouse I sit alone now in the darkness of despair. I've never gotten over her. You are now in a better place. I can't bear this pain, but I will if someone can promise me that he will be there waiting when my time comes. To lose someone I loved brings pain beyond belief. Paramedics arrived and they took over to try to save him. He was my friend, lover, confidant, teacher. Maybe if I had gone downstairs sooner. We met when I was 14 and have been together since. I feel his presence all the time and believe he hears me when I talk to him in private. I know he would want me to go on living. It's not the same anymore. It feels like yesterday. Our daughter was pregnant with our first grandchild and my husband died 2 1/2 months before he was born. I feel your pain because I lost my hubby of 13 years in August of this year. I knew from the moment he introduced himself on our first date, that this was the man I was going to marry. He was 53 years old. We decided to sell our house to travel. I can honestly say that things do get better. This carries me forward every day until our souls are reunited in heaven and we are returned to each other for all of eternity. Thank you. What has helped me has been faith and prayer. He was my best friend, lover and husband. You see, he was widowed when we met and I was divorced. The darkness frightens me. We had been a couple since we were 16 and 17 in high school, and he was my everything. I feel for you, and reading all these posts helps me see I am not the only one who is going out of my mind. My husband has been gone for 17 months, and I still cry for him a lot. I am in the sun that warms you. I felt like screaming and could not believe what I heard. Did you spell check your submission? I don't think you ever stop missing a loved one. He was my world and he is still my world. Someday I will see him again, but I have spent my life alone. All of your words are exactly how I feel. To my dear and loving husband. I just don't know how or when this gets better. He had a stroke in the night. He was sitting in his chair and I knew it was bad. Just miss him. God is my strength. I feel so lost and alone. I am so sorry for your loss. All other content on this website is Copyright 2006-2023 FFP Inc. All rights reserved. The loneliness surrounds me; Sometimes I just cry, and sometimes I want scream. He was my one and only. R.I.P. The first was way back in 1982, and yet I still feel that pain and loss as acutely as if it just happened an hour ago! Three of our daughters and I cared for him 24/7. He was the funniest guy ever. Even that doesn't sound strong or terrible enough to describe how I feel. He was a talented singer too and a very loving and caring husband and father for 39 years. He was gone so soon. I pray all who are going through this get peace. Can't stop crying. PLEASE take care of yourself, and do NOT think about taking your life in order to be with your husband! I just can't comprehend what happened. He passed away in his sleep from congestive heart failure. Now I'm shattered and wondering if God was laughing at me. I miss how you would sing to me at night. They just don't understand. We were supposed to grow old together, watch our children grow into adulthood, marry and have children of their own. Everyone says - give it time - I don't want time - I want him. he replied, "I need to." By I feel like I am competing sometimes with my mother in law as her failure to move forward at all for my boys means she hurts so much more. I miss you crawling back into bed in the middle of the night and whispering how much you love me and how we were going to spend the rest of our lives together. I will never get over my loss and I look forward to the day I am reunited with him in heaven. For a husband, a father. Talk about a "double whammy!" Our families rock. My condolences to you. When I read what you wrote it was strikingly similar to how I feel. I don't like it when people refer to him as was. As he had been fighting a cold for two weeks he agreed. Featured Shared Story My husband who was a professional boxer developed dementia at age 57 from undetected brain injuries. I still miss him more than ever, Dear Kathy, I'm strong as I've not been alone mainly because my family wants to make sure I'm ok. He was my soulmate, my best friend! I'm ready to join him. Without a clue, It's says everything in my heart ..and more!! Functioning in everyday life is excruciating pain inside my soul, which also includes the continuing pain I deal with in my back. We also have a daughter who still lives with me and I am so thankful for her. But I do try to keep my head to God and have faith that he will see us through!!! I miss everything about him. Time, just only passes by. He loved me unconditionally, and I feel lost without his presence and love. Yes the nights are hardest, sometimes you cannot sleep without some kind of help. I did CPR until the rescue arrived, screaming his name, begging him not to leave me, but we never got him back. Not for me, you see true love never dies, I truly love my darling and he truly loved me. He is my Johnmy precious John! I miss them so much. They were in a car accident together. I carry on Any thoughts would be great. I know I can encourage some women as well. It was his heart. We were so synchronously in tune for 46 years, I have felt at times as though my balance is thrown away. I loved him. No more do I get to hold his hand, hear his laughter, and hear that beautiful heart. We were married 15 years, and he was 38 years old. For that I am grateful. Lots of people, lots of advice, lots of choices, but in the end whatever you do will be the right thing for that time. I miss him so much. My husband fell out of bed when I wasn't there to watch him. Were you touched by this poem? She brings me comfort. He drovealways looking after me. The saying "If one hadn't loved so deeply one would not grieve" gives me comfort in my grief. I cry driving, showering, and anything else. I'm good at pretending to be o.k. Nobody could take his place because he was a one of a kind. Our Grandsons helped. I cry all the time. I will keep my husband always in my heart. We were supposed to go away for the weekend a couple of days after he passed. D ko alam kailan ako mkaka move on. I had to tell my story to deal with the memory of first day of his last week on earth. Thanks everyone for listening. Now it's November and Thanksgiving was closing in. May you and your children find strength! The person we made all of our decisions with and the person who shared in the outcome of our days and our lives. It hurts. Live on; all is well. This continues to be true. I did not want to love him - but I did. some say you will get over it, well if you haven't lost a loved one close to you, you will never get over it. I feel totally lost, hurt and sad. We have no child either.
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